#choiceless

before waking up
i murdered with cold blood
my lack of confidence 
in the world

with no remorse 
i assassinated 
my lack of hope

having no regrets
i disemboweled 
my fear

bravely destroyed
all signs of 
distrust

before opening my eyes
i decided that
indecisiveness
could be a must
in a parallel 
reality

having dreamt 
a variety of alternatives
i chose to choose you
not out of lack of choice
but out of 
stubbornness

and with equanimity
i admitted to myself
that thinking i actually have a choice
is nothing but
poetry